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Not Sure

I’m not sure what to write, or to say. A sentiment somewhat applied generally in my life right now, but more specifically to important folx about serious or salient topics. In taking on new roles and picking up new responsibilities, I have certainly overwhelmed myself at several junctures. Whether or not this will pan out long term as something “successful” or even “good” for me is yet to be revealed.

During these times of overwhelm, I start to see the breakdown of my self-care habits in small chips and fragments. Like a stone cutter losing track of the bigger piece and shaving down too far. It may start as simple as forgetting several days of notating journal entries, or of missed exercise. I’ve noticed I fail to take daily supplements or perhaps vanish from the social world of my close friends. In some cases I catch on that this is happening, talk about it, and head it off. Of late I have felt I did not necessarily have the confidence or perhaps even wherewithal to share it with someone, and I’ve been choking down some water as I struggle to stay afloat.

I wonder what the best remedy for me in this situation and at this time might be. Some things I’ve read tell me a single lost day might set me back months in terms of project longevity or triumph, others tout that our lack of laziness contributes to our stymied health and happiness. A final one tells me that no matter how long I might take, merely knowing the end goal and having some concept of progress should benefit me.

I think the only answer I have in response right now is that I am not sure. Not sure where I’m going or if I’m doing all the right things. I’m not sure what I’d like to be doing or whether I should actually drop anything outright from my roster now.

I will be sure to start journaling again, and getting some things updated here on the site as well. At the very least, additional documentation of this period may serve me well at some future date.

Listen to Ep 3 Trustopias

Well hello there. Isaac is back and brought a couple new people in for some conversation about how we trust, what we do when it’s broken, and then whether or not we should upload all human consciousness to each new child to see if it makes us stop treating each other like shit. Thanks for listening! https://lucentilive.podbean.com/mf/play/ig5urh/Ep3_RumpleTongueFerox_21Feb.mp3Podcast: Play in new window | Download

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Fear Based Stress Reduction

snippet of the screaming guy painting

I am now several weeks in to a course called Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction (MBSR). I’m learning about the program and some of the science that’s been conducted around its efficacy. And I’ve been adding new practices on top of my daily routines, experiencing different ways of being mindful: body scans, formal meditations, movement, mindful activities, and so on. My mind, in usual unquiet fashion, consistently concocts thoughts and…

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WBGML

Writers block got me like… That reminder I set for myself on my phone, but that I keep changing the next day. That friend you keep meaning to text, but totally forget to for weeks on end. The deep cleaning you promised yourself you would do when the weather finally turned warm, but you want to make sure it’s warm for just a couple extra days before you get…

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Listen to Minisode 2.3 Motorvational Speaking

It’s finally time for Lucenti Live Episode 2.3, with Isaac as your solo host. I’m word-walking my way through the projects and major tasks currently on my burner. Listening back to this exercise will hopefully give me some additional perspective on what I can prioritize, delegate, or push to the backburner. Please send any feedback, commentary, puns, or dead memes through the Contact page over at Lucenti.Live and you can follow…

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Just Deserts

28-Feb Idaho 23:50pm Wind I think my mum is probably not going to live for too much longer. She recently had another sudden health issue and she can’t slow down. Because no one in her day-to-day life is going to step up and actually take care of her. Some other family came, her parents and brother, but it sounds like they were just as much work as her regularly…

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Charter Cutie Plate – Section Four

Continued from Section Three. Community Safety, Sponsorship, and Recruitment Definitions Community Safety: multi-stakeholder ‘local’ approach to building cohesion between individual parties that seeks to free members from fear and want. Sponsorship: aspirants to Lucenti need a current member to vouch for them, this sponsor will remain familiar with the initiate and their progress for the duration of their introductory period. Recruitment: in the formation or deepening of friendships and…

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Charter Cutie Plate – Section Three

Continued from Section Two. Legitimacy Through Vouching, No Rigid Hierarchy, and Do-ocracy Definitions Vouching: individuals and sub-groups are recognized through consensus of other individuals/groups within Lucenti Rigid Hierarchy: a static ruling elite ranked as superior to and in control of a larger body of persons Do-ocracy: https://communitywiki.org/wiki/DoOcracy The article to do-ocracy above also includes some commentary/discussion that dives into a few things that Lucenti groups may encounter. If the…

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Listen to Lucenti Live Minisode 2.2

Welcome to Lucenti Live Episode 2.2, with Isaac as your solo host. We walk through the recommitting ritual originally performed by the trio last year. Then I focus on what intentions were set last year, how “successful” they were, and new accomplishments I hope are more salient. Give a listen to this very unedited minisode! Please send any feedback, commentary, puns, or dead memes through the Contact page over at…

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