All Posts By: ferox

dreams: assassin

From 23-Aug:

Was present with a couple of femme folx (partners or friends, unsure which. One of the femmes was an older person with some issue getting around easily) and realized something was wrong. We assessed the area and noted that the wide open windows, collapsing front door, and general open floor plan was very weak security-wise. In the process of trying to make it more defensible, we spotted a sniper across the way and everyone got down. The sniper left after a couple failed shots, but we feared them arriving to bust in door and complete their work. We stayed low, armed ourselves with what was available, and waited to defend ourselves, but no one came. I opted to go for additional supplies and a neighbor in the building was contacted, he was able to take them into his more secured place while I would be gone. I don’t remember anything after that.

update, grief, and dreams log

There’s been some additional weight added to my life, in addition to the overwhelm mentioned in my previous post. As my fingers try to relay the thoughts and feelings from deeper places inside me, documenting recent dreams here seems interesting. From 22-August: Bits and pieces from earlier in the dream involved driving around, chatting with others under the warmth of the sun. Then, laying down upon a bed continuing…

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Not Sure

I’m not sure what to write, or to say. A sentiment somewhat applied generally in my life right now, but more specifically to important folx about serious or salient topics. In taking on new roles and picking up new responsibilities, I have certainly overwhelmed myself at several junctures. Whether or not this will pan out long term as something “successful” or even “good” for me is yet to be…

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Listen to Ep 3 Trustopias

Well hello there. Isaac is back and brought a couple new people in for some conversation about how we trust, what we do when it’s broken, and then whether or not we should upload all human consciousness to each new child to see if it makes us stop treating each other like shit. Thanks for listening! https://lucentilive.podbean.com/mf/play/ig5urh/Ep3_RumpleTongueFerox_21Feb.mp3Podcast: Play in new window | Download

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Fear Based Stress Reduction

snippet of the screaming guy painting

I am now several weeks in to a course called Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction (MBSR). I’m learning about the program and some of the science that’s been conducted around its efficacy. And I’ve been adding new practices on top of my daily routines, experiencing different ways of being mindful: body scans, formal meditations, movement, mindful activities, and so on. My mind, in usual unquiet fashion, consistently concocts thoughts and…

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WBGML

Writers block got me like… That reminder I set for myself on my phone, but that I keep changing the next day. That friend you keep meaning to text, but totally forget to for weeks on end. The deep cleaning you promised yourself you would do when the weather finally turned warm, but you want to make sure it’s warm for just a couple extra days before you get…

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Listen to Minisode 2.3 Motorvational Speaking

It’s finally time for Lucenti Live Episode 2.3, with Isaac as your solo host. I’m word-walking my way through the projects and major tasks currently on my burner. Listening back to this exercise will hopefully give me some additional perspective on what I can prioritize, delegate, or push to the backburner. Please send any feedback, commentary, puns, or dead memes through the Contact page over at Lucenti.Live and you can follow…

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Just Deserts

28-Feb Idaho 23:50pm Wind I think my mum is probably not going to live for too much longer. She recently had another sudden health issue and she can’t slow down. Because no one in her day-to-day life is going to step up and actually take care of her. Some other family came, her parents and brother, but it sounds like they were just as much work as her regularly…

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Charter Cutie Plate – Section Four

Continued from Section Three. Community Safety, Sponsorship, and Recruitment Definitions Community Safety: multi-stakeholder ‘local’ approach to building cohesion between individual parties that seeks to free members from fear and want. Sponsorship: aspirants to Lucenti need a current member to vouch for them, this sponsor will remain familiar with the initiate and their progress for the duration of their introductory period. Recruitment: in the formation or deepening of friendships and…

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